Real Life: Letters from Home

by Ewankenobi (PadawanEwan@aol.com)

Archive: MA . . . Any one else just let me know.

Rating: PG-13

Pairing: Q/O

Category: A/U, POV, Drama

Warnings: Canon has been abused.

Spoilers: None

Feedback: Welcomed. Encouraged. Craved.

Summary: A few letters for Obi, and time for a drink with a friend.

Disclaimers: Lucas owns Star Wars. I own my laptop.

Notes: I really want to thank Laura for some feedback and Alex-you really helped me! This one is longer. It is three letters from Coruscant. Hopefully, the first letter will help explain some things. Just for some fun-I changed some ages. Obi is 30, Qui is 53, Ani is 20 and Xan is 38. My Master, as always, continues to give me encouragement and the occasional kick in the ass I need. One other thing- If anyone reading this is a fan of early 80's music, there is a reference in here. Big points and a nekkid Obi to anyone that finds it.

Series Order:
Real Life
Real Life: Take Two
Real Life: Take Three
Real Life: Take Four
Real Life: Obi's Second Take
Real Life: Letters From Home

Private Communique:
To: Kenobi, Knight
Diplomatic Corps
From: Jinn, Master
Jedi Temple-Coruscant

Obi,

I have been thinking a great deal about our "talk." I know you said that we hate yet we love. I know that was to get my attention, so you could make a point. Your feelings are important to me. I will get back to our present situation in a moment.

Do you remember how and when we fell in love? I do. Naboo-- I finally listened to one of your visions. You pleaded with me to stay by your side. I did. On the transport back we talked, bared our souls. I told you how much of my life and heart you were (and still are).You told me you couldn't imagine a life without me.

Do you remember the first time we made love? I certainly do. You had just been knighted. We had decided to wait until then. You came to me. You only said one word--now. We started kissing and touching. The only sounds were whispers and low moans. The first time I tasted you, looked in your eyes as you came. It was one of the most erotic and satisfying nights of my life.

What we have between us is more than love. It's a LIFE. We've built that life, together.

To get back to the present, let us start with the "talk" that has you running away. I have tried to allow you as much freedom as I see you need. I know you think I am controlling. I was, and in many ways still am, your Master. You aren't approving of my dealings with the Council. I will do as I see fit. You feel I am colder to you than I am to others. I don't want you to become like Xanatos.

You are the one who doesn't understand. You are my prize possession. I have spent years shaping and molding you.

In another lifetime, my pragmatic introvert, you must have been a General. Your ability to ignore the "pathetic life-forms" and make the hard choices, to get the job done, chills me. You are a warrior. It bothers you that I give physical comfort to others.

What is it you want me to say? This is frustrating! You are my mate! Your place is by my side. I miss you. I want you. You need me.

This is ridiculous.

I have approached the Council about coming to Bandomeer. I have gotten nowhere with that. Master Windu won't even discuss it with me. He tells me you are on one of your "special" missions for the Council. Again, another situation that bothers me. You know how he and I dislike each other, yet you remain friends with him.

I want you to think about our life together.

I miss and love you.

QGJ
--END TRANSMISSION--

***ADDITIONAL TRANSMISSION ADDED

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Ben,

Hey, I hacked into the trans-files. Don't tell Master. I didn't read the letter he wrote you.

I just wanted to tell you that I miss you, bad. I think about you all the time.

Here's the thing. Go with me on this. I love you. Not the "best friend" love you, not the "little brother" love you (I am taller than you, hahahaha). I am in love with you.

Now, before you get all snarky, which you will, here is my list of reasons why you should give me a shot, or at least think about it.

1. We have a lot in common -- piloting, mechanics, both devastatingly handsome.

2. We both think you are funny.

3. We both know I am funny.

All joking aside, I would be good to you. I don't like the way Master treats you. You deserve better.

Before you ask me about that girl from Naboo, or my age-mates:
When I turned sixteen I began to notice this beautiful Knight. He spent time with me, talked to me like I mattered. When I first figured out what I felt, I really started looking. Yes, I found him attractive. It's more though. It's dancing in the salle. It's being able to use his real name. It's time for me when he's barely got time for him. It's someone that really cares about me. It's someone I really care about. He is Jedi Knight Obi-Wan Kenobi, my Ben.

Just think about it. I know things aren't going well with Master.

Please be careful!

Love,
Ani.

END TRANSMISSION

NEXT TRANSMISSION

TO: Kenobi, Knight
Jedi Diplomatic Corps

FROM: Jedi Council
Jedi Temple-Coruscant

Knight Kenobi,

The Council would like you to extend this mission. We feel you can bring Xanatos D'Crion back to the Jedi.

Your former Master has made inquiries, as to joining you. We have decided his presence would be detrimental to the mission.

We, the Council, are sure you understand the need for your continued discretion and secrecy.

May the Force be With You

INDIVIDUAL COUNCILOR NOTES ADDENDUM

Obi-Wan,

I just wanted to say how proud I am of you. I know if anyone can bring our "fallen angel" back to the light, it's you. He does have a soft spot for you.

I have released much anger to the Force because of Qui-Gon. His treatment of both you and Xanatos has been deplorable.

I know you want to defend him, again. Sadly, you seem to do that a lot.

I do look forward to the day I see happiness, not sadness or resignation in your aura. I still wish I could have been your Master.

Let me know how you are and if I can help in any way.

Your Friend,

Mace

END TRANSMISSION

Meanwhile . . .

In a dark tavern in Bandomeer, two men meet for different reasons.

"Knight Kenobi, always a pleasure."

"Lord D'Crion, you honor me."

"Very cute. Have a seat Ben."

"Thanks Xan."

"How are you?"

"Fine, and you?"

"Ben, you don't sound fine. You also, much as I find you beautiful, don't look fine."

"Xan, first quit flirting, second I will be okay."

"You know you want to tell me."

"No, I don't"

"Yes, you do and would you like to know why?"

"Ok, I'll bite."

"I wish..."

"Xan!"

"The bottom line is: I am the only one that understands your life with him. You are waiting to find out everything. You think you know, but until I tell you, you don't."

"No, that's not the reason I don't want to talk about it."

"Afraid a personal conversation will get in the way of you bringing me back to the light?"

"True, but still not the reason."

"Then why, Ben?"

"Because, I really want you to kiss me." The Jedi stood up to leave, radiating confusion.

Xanatos reached out and laid his hand gently on Obi-Wan's arm. He whispered,"I'd like that."

Looking down at his arm Obi-Wan murmured, "I have to go."

If the Jedi Knight had looked back as he left the tavern, he would have seen the first real smile, in years, to grace his companion's face.

TBC.....