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Categories: Q/O, Hurt/comfort, First Time, Point of View

Rating: PG

Spoilers: nope, none what so ever

Disclaimers: Damn George, he is the lucky owner of these two wonderful Jedi. I just like to borrow and have a little fun. I will return them someday.

Warning: The idea of this came out of a pretty bad week. It is pretty sad.

Feedback: Please! Please! I want to know if you liked it, hated it or what I did wrong. Please let me know on-list or off, don't care either way, just let me know. (I will stop begging now)

Summary: Qui-Gon's response to Obi-Wan leaving. Companion piece to "Dear Qui-Gon"

Holonet Personals #679372613: Obi-Wan... Please come back

Dear Obi-Wan,

I know this is an impersonal way of trying to get a hold of you, but it was the only way I could think of. It has been three days since you have left and I have done nothing but cry. There is an empty feeling in the quarters without you being here and an empty place in my mind where our training bond used to be.

I want to state clearly now, you did not rape or take advantage of me. I repeat, you did not rape or take advantage of me. I was in complete control of my body the whole time and I wanted our coupling as much as you did. Do you honestly think that you could trick a Jedi Master to have sex with someone that he didn't want?

Over the past three days, I have been reliving all of the different times throughout your life and training with me that I have wanted to tell you my feeling, show you my love. But I was unsure of your feelings about me, and I didn't want to hurt you. You were so young, but before I knew it, you were a handsome young man and exploring your own sexuality. Sadly, I watched from afar, never letting my feeling surface.

That night was one of the happiest nights of my life, because it was then I knew that you shared the same feelings for me as I had for you. Throughout the night, I had been using the Force to cleanse my body of the alcohol, trying to keep a level head as possible. On our walk home, I was feeling happy, but not as drunk as you thought I was. Feeding off of that happiness, I pulled you on top of me and rejoiced when you kissed me. The rest of the night, you know what happened.

As for that morning, I had meant to talk to you about what happened, but the council awoke me early that morning. You looked so peaceful, sleeping next to me in my bed, so I made sure that you did not awake. That was the biggest mistake I could have made. We needed to talk to make sure there were no misconceptions between the both of us.

When I came back, I could not shake the feeling that something was wrong and then I read your letter. At that moment, my heart broke and I felt that I would not be able to continue on. My life is not whole without you.

No one in the temple knows that you left yet. All they know is that I am not feeling well and you are indisposed at the moment (which is the truth). You could come back and no one would think badly of you. I will not think badly of you. We can work through this problem together; rebuild what was broken, what was lost.

I love you, always have and always will.
Your Master,
Qui-Gon Jinn

Obi-Wan could not believe his eyes. Qui-Gon loved him. He did not rape his master. So that is why I randomly checked the personals today. Why have I been so blind? I acted too quickly, and I could have destroyed the one person that means the most to me, thought Obi-Wan. He was sitting in a holonet café on the planet of Alderaan, just a hop, skip and jump away from Coruscant. The café was filled with all sorts of species, none of which paying attention to the former Jedi almost in tears in the corner. His hand slowly moved over to hit the reply button on the screen and typed a very simple reply.

Qui-Gon, my love,

I am sorry. I acted too quickly and because of that, I gravely hurt you. We will work through this. I love you and I am coming home.

Obi-Wan

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