When Everything is Made to be Broken

by Catclaw ( catclawisil@yahoo.com )

Title: When Everything is Made to be Broken
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: If they were mine, Qui-Gon would be alive� And I would be rich, and a man and seeing as I'm neither of those things...
Summary: Set after TPM, Obi-Wan wakes alone.

And I�d give up forever to touch you. �Cause I know that you feel me somehow�
And sooner or later it�s over, I just don�t want to miss you tonight.
- Goo Goo Dolls - Iris

Half asleep Obi-Wan reached out next to him, groping around on the bed for the familiar warmth to snuggle closer to. Frowning in confusion when he couldn�t find it, he opened his eyes. Qui-Gon wasn�t there. Of course he�s not here! Obi-Wan chided himself mentally, and he won�t be here, never again�

Every time he had to realise that fact it felt like he was losing his master all over again. He�d tried to release his grief to the Force, force had he tried. But he couldn�t let go of it. He clung to it as though it could bring the man he loved back. Only he knew that it wouldn�t. Something that he had meditated on time and again, but nothing helped.

He knew that the other Jedi in the temple had been trying to help him, but it wasn�t working. They hadn�t had to watch their master die, hadn�t been stuck behind an energy field unable to be at their master�s side, like they should have been, helpless as the one they loved in all the galaxy was sliced straight through with a lightsabre.

Tears ran down his face as he lay back down and cried himself to sleep. Where his dreams were filled with the look on Qui-Gon�s face as he was pierced by the �sabre blade.

Watching Obi-Wan from his place in the beyond, Qui-Gon felt his heartbreak.

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