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Rating: G

Category: P.O.V.

Archive: Raven Dreams and MA.

Summary: Qui-Gon reflects on his future.

Notes: An etude inspired by the Theme and Timbre challenge. It uses the theme but may not have the timbre.

Sources: The Phantom Menace, http://www.spindrift.com/thesaurus/index.html, http://www.ocmusic.com/terms.htm

I look out into space seeing the stars pass at hyperspeed and I am blind to them. Instead, I watch time slip by and I want to stop it. I don't see the flares of stars, but the flames of my own funeral pyre in the not too distant future.

I watch Obi-Wan grow before me. As I taught him, my padawan now teaches me. Yesterday he was a boy, anxious to please, learning from me, thinking we had forever. He is unaware of my vision and I choose not tell him. It would only taint the time we have left together. 'Live in the moment,' I have preached to him and he has heeded my advice not knowing those moments are numbered.

At night, I dream of a future that might never be. Through the mists of possibilities I view our lives entwined, our shared sorrows, triumphs, laughter and tears. I hang on with a stubborn grip, not wanting him to grow up or, in a small vanity, for myself not to grow old. Occasions like Obi-Wan's knighting stretch out in the greatest detail. I touch his braid gently before I pull it taut and clip it close to his scalp. I hold it high before the many witnesses, friends and colleagues who share our joy with us. I see glimpses of the many years we have in front of us. The days extend into years but are cramped into only a few hours. Each morning they fade away...

Perhaps for now, I can stop time from passing, stop fate from separating us. At least I can hold on to that deceit, if just for the present and look to a future bright with hope.

The starscape speeds up and I yearn to spend those moments with Obi-Wan. Share my love while I can. For soon we land on Naboo and there may be no tomorrows.