A Loss of Control

by Jayde Amali



Rating: NC-17

Archive: M/A and my homepage only. All others, please ask first.

Series: Yeah, I just can't think of a name for the series, so I've been calling it 'The Gawan Series'. The stories in order are Negotiations, Rude Awakening, and A Loss of Control.

Categories: Not too sure. Some humour, First Time, and a few others I can't think of.

Spoilers: Not in this one

Warnings: Does Domination count?

Summary: Following the events from Negotiations and Rude Awakening, the gawan finds a new way to annoy Qui-Gon.

Feedback: Please. It lets me know you like my stuff, or hate it, or want to see more of this series. (It will be written regardless. ;))

Notes: Much thanks to Alex Taylor who beta read this and suggested the title. ;)



Qui-Gon woke to the sounds of frantic scratching. He turned over and glared at the gawan, who promptly glared back. Changing tactics, Qui- Gon allowed the gawan a satisfied smile. The gawan's ears twitched in surprise, the whiskers fanned out.

The gawan sat still for a moment, paws on his latest chew toy, a plastic piece of the cage. Slowly the paws came off the cage and started to rub over his head, his beady eyes never leaving the Jedi.

Qui-Gon stood up and stretched slowly before grabbing his robe. He ignored the sound coming from the gawans cage and headed out to the main room, slipping his robe on as he went.

"Padawan, something must be done about that rodent's sleeping arrangements," the elder Jedi commented as he slid into his chair.

Obi-Wan looked up in mock surprise. "But Master, we already got the telepathic inhibitor on the cage like you requested. He hasn't found a way around that has he?"

Qui-Gon shook his head. "Well, no..." He didn't get a chance to finish as Obi-Wan interrupted him.

"Good. Then he's not annoying you." Obi-Wan looked back down at his reading.

"Actually, he's found a new way to annoy me." Qui-Gon picked up a piece of fruit and nibbled at it.

"Oh?"

"He's chewing his cage apart from the inside."

Obi-Wan couldn't help it. He fell out of his chair giggling. Qui-Gon stared at him a moment, the fruit forgotten about an inch from his mouth. He waited until Obi-Wan managed to control his laughter.

"I fail to see the humour in this, my Padawan. The only good that rodent is doing in my room is waking me in the middle of the night. I would swear that this was some plot to gain revenge upon me for that inhibitor." He stifled a yawn. "And leave me tired in the mornings."

"I doubt he meant any harm, Master. He is, after all, just a rodent." Obi- Wan sat up on the floor. "Are you going to eat that?" He motioned to the forgotten fruit, still in Qui-Gon's hand.

Qui-Gon glanced at the fruit, then shook his head, offering it to Obi- Wan. He started slightly as Obi-Wan picked the fruit from his hand, not with his own hand, but with his mouth. Those eyes looked up to meet his as that tongue started to lick the juice from his hand.

Obi-Wan grinned as he sat back, then looked up at the table. "Is there any more up there?"

Qui-Gon stared at him blankly for a moment before picking up the plate of fruit and setting it on the ground next to Obi-Wan. A chuckle escaped him as his Padawan licked up a piece of the fruit from the plate. He picked up a piece and offered it to Obi-Wan, suppressing a moan as the fruit was snatched from his fingers by a warm mouth.

"Perhaps I should just get you a collar and leash and call you Obi-Cat?"

"Purr?"

"Imp." Qui-Gon snorted and stood up, intent on checking his messages. As he started to read the first, he felt a soft nuzzle against his leg. Glancing down he shook his head at the sight of Obi-Wan rubbing up against him. Reaching down with one hand, he lightly patted the younger man's head before turning his full attention to his messages.

"Growl." Obi-Wan nipped Qui-Gon's leg before returning to just rubbing up against him. He smirked as he felt the jump, then smiled as his master couldn't quite hide the sudden arousal.

"Obi-Wan!" Qui-Gon half glared down at his apprentice. "Collar and leash. You realise if you continue on this, I will force you to eat from a bowl and drink from a bowl." He kept his voice conversational.

"Sounds nice." Obi-Wan wriggled his way between his master and his reading. "As long as I can sit on your lap and get scratched behind the ears?" He slipped his arms around Qui-Gon's waist and nuzzled his cheek against the older man's stomach.

Qui-Gon pulled away, sitting down in his chair. "Very well, Obi-Cat." He chuckled as Obi-Wan crawled over to him and up into his lap. He gasped as he felt Obi-Wan's mouth tickling his neck. "Obi-Wan? Are you sure this is wise?"

"Probably not," came the soft reply. "But if you suggest meditation on this, I'll skin you alive." He nipped Qui-Gon's ear lightly and pressed up against Qui-Gon's hips, feeling the hardness there.

"Padawan." The whispered word was more than Obi-Wan needed. He growled as Obi-Wan stood up.

"Bedroom." Obi-Wan stared down at him, his eyes demanding to be obeyed.

Qui-Gon stood up, looking down at his Padawan a moment before complying. He wasn't sure just when he'd lost control and part of him was screaming at him about how right this was. Another small part was demanding for him to take back control. He ignored it and headed for the bedroom.

Obi-Wan trailed him in and gave one look at the gawan in its cage. "And to think, you started all this." He picked up the cage and set it just outside the door. "You. On the bed." He pointed at Qui-Gon, then the bed.

Qui-Gon swallowed, tensing briefly. He watched Obi-Wan then moved to obey, sitting down on the edge of the bed.

"Lay down." Obi-Wan closed the door, standing just inside.

Qui-Gon tensed, glancing at the bed, then the door, and finally to Obi-Wan. He could sense the sudden desire from his Padawan and the scent of irritation coming from him.

"Lay down," repeated Obi-Wan. He could sense the inner battle as well as the older man's desire for him. He watched as Qui-Gon relented and lay back on the bed.

Qui-Gon took a deep breath and tried to surrender his fear to the Force.

He met Obi-Wan's eyes and swallowed hard. He wanted this. That large part of himself wanted this. Needed to give up the rigid control. Yet that small part of him held on to his fear.

Obi-Wan looked at him a long moment then shook his head. "You're overdressed." He held up a hand as Qui-Gon started to get up. "No. Stay on the bed, but undress. Kneel if you need to."

Obi-Wan sat in the chair across from the bed and watched Qui-Gon kneeling on the bed to remove his clothing. A smile made its way on his features. "Beautiful," came the whisper. He watched Qui-Gon blush, then made his move. He knelt on the bed in front of Qui-Gon. "Undress me." The command was whispered, but it still had the right effect. He whimpered as he felt Qui-Gon's hands on him, removing his clothing.

Qui-Gon battled with himself a moment, wanting to give in completely. Wanting this, needing this. Needing to be taken. Fear overtook him for a moment, betrayed by his trembling hands. He paused a moment, his hands hovering over Obi-Wan's tunic. He looked up into Obi-Wan's eyes, shocked inwardly by the impatient look in them. Deeper down was the young man's desire. A coursing desire ran through Qui-Gon as he started on the task set for him. He did not falter in his task, ridding Obi-Wan of his clothing.

"Hush, love. I won't hurt you." Obi-Wan slipped his arms around Qui- Gon, holding him for a moment, waiting until the elder's trembling had subsided. He felt the deep breath and the sigh as Qui-Gon overcame his fear and nodded slightly.

Obi-Wan gently pushed Qui-Gon back and met his eyes. "Lay down." He waited until his command was obeyed, then leaned over the elder. "I won't hurt you." He repeated, pressing soft kisses to the other man's face. He found Qui-Gon's mouth, claiming it with his own, first tentatively, then gaining more confidence, deepening the kiss. His hands slid over Qui-Gon's chest, teasing lightly at his nipples before moving down over his stomach. He stopped just before reaching the other man's cock.

Qui-Gon growled softly, nudging his hips up against Obi-Wan's. He was rewarded with his hips being held tightly and pushed down against the mattress. He whimpered as the kiss ended, leaving him breathless and wanting more.

"Don't move." Obi-Wan let go of the man, standing up and disappearing for a moment.

Qui-Gon closed his eyes and struggled with himself to stay still. Every part of him screamed at his hands to clasp his aching flesh and relieve the tension that Obi-Wan had left him with. He forced his hands flat against the bed, hearing Obi-Wan search about in the 'fresher. He sighed in relief as Obi-Wan settled back down on the bed. He kept his eyes closed, afraid that should he open them he would discover that this was all a dream.

Obi-Wan set two vials aside, keeping a third in his hand. He opened it and poured a bit on Qui-Gon's chest, hearing the older man gasp his name. He closed and set the vial aside. Starting slowly, he began to rub the oil over Qui-Gon's chest, teasing his nipples lightly. Leaning down, he flicked his tongue out, caressing a nipple gently. He smiled slightly at the hoarse cry ripped at the motion.

The second vial was picked up and opened. Oil dripped over Obi-Wan's fingers, landing on Qui-Gon's stomach. One hand touched the elder's stomach, rubbing lightly, the other seeking out the most intimate spot he could find. Using his knees, Obi-Wan pushed Qui-Gon's legs apart gently.

"Tell me if you want to stop, Qui-Gon." Obi-Wan kept his voice soft, one finger just creating a pressure against Qui-Gon's entrance.

"I want this. I want you." Qui-Gon's voice was little more than a whisper. He hoped he sounded somewhat coherent, and quickly realised he had as Obi-Wan's finger pushed inside of him. It took everything he had to keep from screaming out and coming. He settled on gripping tightly to the bedsheets, his legs opening more for Obi-Wan. He felt a second finger work its way inside him and concentrated on relaxing himself.

Obi-Wan lowered his head just enough and flicked out his tongue, licking over the tip of Qui-Gon's cock. His fingers reached deep inside the other man and found that spot and rubbed up against it. He closed his mouth over Qui-Gon's cock as the elder screamed out and came hard. Red flashed behind his eyelids as he felt Obi-Wan's mouth continuing to work on him. He was mildly surprised that he never once lost his erection, rather felt it returning immediately.

The third vial was given attention to, coating Obi-Wan's cock. He pulled his fingers out of Qui-Gon. Lifting Qui-Gon's knees to rest on his shoulders, he pressed his cock against Qui-Gon's opening.

"Qui-Gon? Are you sure?"

Qui-Gon opened his eyes then, looking up at Obi-Wan. "Yes! I want this!" He jerked his hips up, trying to force Obi-Wan into him. His head fell back against the pillows as he was taken. There was no roughness, no pain, only gentleness and pleasure.

They found a rhythm quickly as though they'd been together this way for an eternity before. Ocean eyes met sky eyes, two different elements, finding a way to exist together. Bound to each other in ways that go beyond understanding.

//My Obi. My love.//

//My Qui. My soul.//

//Yes. My soul.//

They cried out together, their pleasure finding them both. Obi-Wan collapsed over Qui-Gon, nuzzling his neck gently. Qui-Gon closed his eyes and pressed a soft kiss to Obi-Wan's temple.



Outside the room, the gawan sat still in his nest. A little smile found its way onto little rodent lips. He raised his paws and wet his hands and rubbed his face clean. He scurried over to the nutribar left in his cage last night, deciding it was time for a little snack before an escape attempt...

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